welcome to my world

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 03:16:07 GMT

No More Livejournal.

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 02:45:00 GMT

I've decided to stop writing in here for good. I haven't written in this in months.. cuz I'm using Xanga instead. So yea, This was a pretty pointless entry...
Schools out for christmas break and I did pretty good this semester. But, I gotta run. BYE! :)

It's been a long long long time!!

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 00:22:59 GMT

Well since my Xanga is being a major bitchass right now.. I decided I might as well write in my LJ for once. It's been a long ass time since I've written in here. I have a cool pic I took of central park that I wanted to put up. So yea thats all wanted to say. Bye!!!

And here are the lyrics to Yellowcard "Only One" bc I can't get that song out of my head. I love it though!!!

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

It's been a while!

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 01:22:01 GMT

I haven't written in my livejournal in a while. I've been writing in my Xanga mostly. Well, I'm back at Clarion. I'm glad to be back here but I miss home a lot. I get soo homesick. It's really sad. Already theres been a lil bit of drama and its not even the end of the first week... my god! Ugh.. but ya know.. I don't know what to do. I'm heading over to Amandas apt in a lil bit. I dunno what we're gonna do. Just chill and smoke I guess. Ok well I gotta do some reading for class.. peace!!!

THE OC!!

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 08:48:23 GMT

The first season of the OC is coming out on DVD!!!!! I can't wait!!!! Its coming out Oct. 26.. im so excited. well thats all i gotta say. its late. g'nite!!

blah

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 07:03:21 GMT

its really really sad that i have two of these journal things. i use my xanga one a lot more ... i think i should stop using this one. its making me look like a loser. LOL. i really do have no life so whatever. oh well.. blah! i dunno what else to say... i wanna go see napoleon dynamite. i heard that i was really funny. my sis went last night again.. she's seen it twice already. well i have nothin more to say.. so g'nite!!! i cant wait to go up to clarion on tues. im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited. hahaha.. I really AM a loser!!! GOODNITE!!!

i love scotch. scotchy scotchy scotch.... haha..

----Joaquin looks DAMN GOOD.

HMMMMMMMMMMM?!?

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 18:33:52 GMT

well i just got done eating some chinese. YUM! it was banging!!!!! lol. my grandparents left around 12pm today.... i cried of course. :( i already miss them!!!! :(:(:( i wish they didnt have to go... but i cant change that. im just worried bc they are flying to miami and thats where those damn hurricanes are... so it just scares me!! i worry waaaaay too much but i just cant help it. ugh!!! :(:( well i dunno what im doin today... i wanna go play pool tonight. im in the mood. lol. i love it!!!!! but i dunno what im doin... i need to shower and i have so much to get ready for florida and school.. grrr! i cant packing. blaugh!! oh well what am i gonna do. ok well time for me to go. peace!

wanna see something hot?!? look at this: lol

Sorting Hat Quiz...

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 08:10:56 GMT

I'm from Slytherin!

Hogwart's Sorting Hat Quiz

made by The Genki Gang

i got REALLY bored so i decided to take this sorting hat quiz... it figures id be in slytherin. LOL.

FRIDAY THE 13th..

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 04:25:34 GMT

well today is friday the 13th and that creeps me out. my grandparents are leaving to go back to South America on plane and im scared for them. seriously, everytime (for the most part) they have either flown in or would fly out something has happened. and it being friday the 13th does not give me a good feeling. they flew in nyc on 9/11, and they flew out when the shuttle had crashed a couple years ago. :(:(:( i know im freaking out over nothin really.. but :( im still scared for them. i just hope that they have a save trip back to Uruguay (its in South America) if you didnt know. i know they are happy to go back there just bc of soooo much drama and shit thats gone on between my dad, us, my grandparents and that stupid bitch my dad is married to. but i know they will miss us and i know that i will miss them terribly. all i want for them is to have a safe trip back... but im gonna cry when i say goodbye to them tomorrow :( or today.. considering its friday the 13th and after 12am. its gonna be hard.. i should be used to it by now bc we do this practically every year but everytime i just cry as hard as i did the time before if not harder. :(
ok well.. i did absolutely nothing all day.. i just sat around. blah!! i didnt shower til like 9:30pm. LOL! oh and im soooo happy bc my TROY DVD works now.. like it shows the whole movie, not just half of it. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :):) well i gotta go. im bored!! g'nite!!

erbody in the club getting tipsy..

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 05:49:35 GMT

well i just drank a lil bit today.. well ok only a bottle and im already feeling it. seriously, i used to be able to drink like 3 or so and be ok and now im beginning to be a light weight once again. EWW! bobby came over. god he's such a HOTASS! that would be sooo embaressing if he ever read this.. which i doubt he would.. but still. oh god.. but anyways.. i went to see bombing adam today with bissell.. Tom is fucking HOT! and so is the one guy in the band, John.. i think thats his name. YUM!!! ;) lol. they play really well live. and thats the first time ive seen them. it was an awesome show. i enjoyed it very much. :):) well now im off to bed bc this alcohol is making me a lil tired. so im out. g'nite ya'll. peace!!!

johnny depp is hot

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 02:45:24 GMT

so ive been downloading all this johnny depp stuff on my computer today. i have been really bored and its been crappy out today. raining and storming and shit. blah! well im thinking about making a road trip to clarion some time next week. i talked to maryann and bissell about it. i wonder if dana can come up too.. i dunno considering shes gotta work everyday. so i dunno. im so excited my sister got me a orlando bloom calender. YAY! its HOT!!!! lol. but it really is.. damn! i really wanna get one of those cardboard cut outs from FYE of orlando bloom in lotr. im gonna try to convince my mom to get it for me. but i doubt she'll get it. well i got a bad headache right now.. eww. so im gonna go smoke (like thats gonna help) and lay down. peace!!! maybe i'll convince my sister to get that 24 pack of corona out of her car so i can drink some.. mmmm YUMMY! lol.

chasta is here again!!

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 07:22:54 GMT

well chasta came back to my house to stay over again. she's leaving early tomorrow morning to go back home. she came over around 10 or so.. we watched my bootleg of troy and I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISSED ABOUT IT BC IT FUCKING CUTS OFF HALFWAY THRU THE MOVIE. EWWWWWW!!! i am sooooo pissed off about that. seriously and of course anchorman is perfectly fine!!!!!!!!! so now i have to wait til oct. 12 to buy it on dvd..grrrrr~!!!! oh well, i guess thats not too long.. but still it upsets me. i paid 15 bucks for both of those movies. it figures that would happen. :( so after that we played the game. hehe... and now chasta is sound asleep bc shes gotta leave early tomorrow.
well besides that today was pretty shitty. i am soooo pissed off at my dad. i seriously hate him so much. i got in a fight with him today on the phone and he basically told me that his stupid wife comes before us!!! WTF?!?!?!?!? seriously, we're his fucking blood and that stupid whore is more important to him than us???? how the fuck is that possible and how can you say that to your own daughter?? me and my sister were like bawling our eyes out. it upset us sooo much. and he wonders why we never bother to call him at school and shit? now we have every reason to not talk to him anymore!!!! my mom called him back and bitched him out. it made me feel a lil better i guess. but still... :(:(:(:(:( oh well.. time for me to go to sleep. now i deff cant wait to go back to school. i seriously dont ever want to see or speak to him again!! :(:(

NYC!!!

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 03:27:45 GMT

i really should be in bed right now bc i need to get up really early to leave for NYC! lol! im supposed to be up by 5am.. ugh! i might as well stay up all night. but i wont... bc i really need the sleep or else i'll be really bitchy all day.. and that would be bad. bc im sure rosie, dana and maryann would not appreciate it! i really hope that we have a great time at NYC ... im sure we will even with the terror alert so high, im sure everything will be alright. well i hope it will be. so yea.. i better get my ass to bed.. g'nite ya'll. peace!

Chasta is Here!

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 17:13:40 GMT

well last night was fun. chasta came up and now she's getting ready to leave my house to go to philly or something. but i have to have her follow me down to get on the turnpike. but last night was a lot of fun. except for some things which i dont wanna talk about. grr! some people really make me mad. blah! well anyways, i gotta get going... oh yeah.. some freaky shit happened at amity and at my house.. but don't worry maryann, its just Wes!! lol.. the ghost that lives in my house. he's a nice guy so don't worry! HAHA! lol! well time for me to go. god im soo tired! bye!!

so tired!

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 04:33:37 GMT

its only like 12:30am and i am already tired.. i dunno why?!?! but its not like me at all. im excited for tomorrow. my friend, chasta is coming up to stay over at my house. maryann, bissell and dana are gonna sleepover too. YAY! its been a while since everyone has slept over. i dunno what we are gonna do.. but i'll think of something.. we might go to amity.. but i dunno tho.. since bissells not a big fan of that scary stuff. but i really want everyone to go in. we'll see i guess. im listening to some 3 DOORS DOWN of course. can't stop listening to them..lol! well im tired. g'nite!!!

hmmmmm

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 05:50:36 GMT

well today was fun. went over to bissells house to chill.. had a good time. she made me a card. its so pretty! i feel special! LOL! then afterwards we went to the diner. good times. maryann and dana went to see The Village.. they liked it! well now im at home trying to download some music. tina, allie and amy come back from the beach tomorrow. im sure they had a good time. we need to go to amity some time this week and i think we might be going thurs since chasta is coming up. i cant wait til she comes. i miss her! and i cant wait til school starts.. YAY! but of course im gonna miss everyone sooooo much! as usual. but i know that these next few weeks we'll make the best of our time together and have a blast. ok well heres one of the icons maryann made for me. Thanks Buddy!!!! :)

.......

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 05:01:43 GMT

Im soo sick of everything right now. im fed up!!! :( i hate having to be someone im not all the time. i hate having to be always the one who makes everyone laugh, i hate being the happy person that i am all the time. and i hate that everyone thinks of me as a fucking joke. im seriously sick of it. i have soo much built up inside and i feel like soon im just gonna burst and go fucking crazy. im sooo frustrated and depressed right now. :( i wanna go away and never come back. i wish i had my car right now.. b/c thats what i would do. i would leave and never ever ever come back to this place.. it doesn't feel like home anymore.
no one knows me like they think i do. they have no fucking clue. even if you have known me all my life you have no idea about that the thoughts that run thru my head.. you make think you know.. but you have no idea.
i felt like i needed to write this entry just so i could write my thoughts down.. it helped a lil bit and i don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. this is my own damn fault. and nothin is gonna change the way i feel.

BSB FANS READ THIS.....

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 05:10:22 GMT

AHHHHHHHHH! read this article.. its sooooooooooo exciting!!!!!!

http://www.indystar.com/articles/4/166315-4034-062.html

oh and btw.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSIE! even tho you probably won't read this!

what a crappy day

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 00:30:56 GMT

well right now im playing video games with andy.. its the lord of the rings video game. i've become obsessed with it. we're trying to win the whole thing but its kinda hard. of course im playing Legolas.. LOL!! i dunno if we are still goin to gettsyburg cause its kinda crappy out.. but i want to. i dunno if they are gonna have that pyschic ghost tour anymore this summer. i guess we will see how the weather is in an hour or less. my dog is pacing around the house.. its hilarious. ok well i gotta go... gotta get back to my video game. LOL! Peace!!

what a day...

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 04:07:45 GMT

well today was just boring. me, amy, andy, trish and mike went all the way to shippensburg (its like 40 mins away) to go to this supposedly haunted pond. you are supposed to yell "I have your baby, Mary" out loud 3 times and the ghost chases after you screaming "Give me my baby." yea well it figures it didn't work. OF COURSE! we were there at the most for like 15 mins. i did hear from someone that something like that happened where the woman chased them and they got a scratch on their car. sounds like bullshit to me but i dunno. i guess we weren't lucky enough to see anything or maybe we were lucky.. bc i'd be scared if something did really happen. also today amy and mike got in this HUGE fight over the presidential election. Amy is for Bush and Mike is for Kerry. Mike said that people who vote for Bush have a "character flaw" WTF!?!? and he said that the people who went overseas to fight the war died for nothing. NOTHING?? i mean come on... OMG! seriously, they did die for something. i mean they went over there for Saddam and he's been wanted for a long time. so how can he say that. GRRRR!!!! that bothers me. and he was making all these references to Fahrenheit 9/11.. EWWWW! that movie is SOOOOO one-sided. its all against bush so of course he has to say something about that. Well thats pretty much the end of my night.. kinda get a lil sleepy. but i'll deal... g'nite ya'll! peace!

WHAT UP!?!?!

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 05:54:37 GMT

i had a good time over at danas house today. we watched the movie Legend. i have seen it plenty of times but ya know.. its all good.
tomorrow we might be goin to gettysburg tomorrow. to go to this haunted orphanage or something. i dunno.. im not sure what we are goin do. i guess we will see what happens tomorrow. im bored but i gotta get to bed bc i have a tanning appt at 11:40 tomorrow. EWW! thats way too early but eh.. oh well. thats life. well i gotta go. peace!

shoot me in the face!

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 19:47:16 GMT

omg...my dog is soo fucking annoying right now. she cant seem to stop whining. its bothering me! well i just got up about an hour ago. didnt get to bed til a lil after 5am. yea i know... thats messed up. but i cant help it. i wanna order books for school but they dont seem to have it up yet online. im excited to go back but i still have some things to sort out. hopefully everything will work out soon enough. well time for me to go shower. i have a tanning appt. at 5:40. haha. peace!

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY!!

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 07:44:57 GMT

well not much goin on today. yesterday we went to gettysburg. it was a lot of fun. well im kinda tired but im not. i mean ive been goin to bed late all summer.. but these past few days have been killer. well maybe bc i have been drinking pretty much everday since friday.. LOL! except for tonight. usually zach comes over and chills with us but tonight... he didn't THANK GOD!!! bc then his bro Morgan wouldve came over too and well that would just be weird considering what happened the last time he was over here. (sum of you will know what i mean.. ) but anyways... im sure zach come over tomorrow. in fact, i can bet on that. hopefully no one else will bc well hes actually the nicest one over there (im sure some people wont agree with that). from what ive heard the other guys over there have talked shit on me, tina and allie.. like REALLY mean shit. god... seriously i haven't done anything bad enough to be called names and to be talked about. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! that bothers me. but im telling you next time we ever have a lil party or whatever im gonna lay all that shit down right in front of them. oh yeah i am. it fucking pisses me off!!! ok well i better head off to bed. peace!

where is everyone?!?!?

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 06:40:18 GMT

ok so its kinda late right now.. and no one i talk to is online. EWW.. but its late so i guess thats understandable. well today i dyed my hair.. oh god.. i got hair dye in my eye and it was HORRIBLE.. i thought i was gonna go blind. it was the worst pain i've felt in a long time. omg!!!! it still hurts like hell. i dunno if i like this color tho.. it has a reddish tint to it and its not my usual color that i would use. but oh well .. if i don't like it i'll just change it later.
i'm going thru this phase right now.. its weird its a like a rock phase ya know..its kinda hard to explain but i like it i guess. i'm sooo bored. i can't really do anything considering its late and well my car is being a bitch. it's fucked up majorly. it SUX!!!! i dunno if i'll ever get my car back. :(:(:( well time for me to hit the sack. my sisters bday is tomorrow.. well today actually b/c its after midnight. i gotta get her the rest of my gift. well i'm out. g'nite!!

SURVEY!

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 06:31:57 GMT

heres a survey for you to take... just copy and paste it but erase my answers of course.. hehe.

Firsts
1. First best friend: Allie
2. First car: my VW Jetta.. still have it but its a piece of shit right now.. :(

3. First real kiss: i was 12 or 13
4. First screen name: i don't know
5. First self purchased album: don't remember
6. First funeral: my cousin, David
7. First pet: oh god i don't remember.. i've had WAY too many pets in my life..
8. First piercing/tattoos: earrings in my ears
9. First Credit Card: my walmart credit card lol
10. First enemy: hmmm i have had a lot of those probably Aja or Amanda in grade school
Lasts
1. Last cigarette: about an hour ago.. those new KOOLs
2. Last car ride: me and my sis trish went to take her boyfriend home
3. Last kiss: last month
4. Last good cry: when i went to go see The Notebook
5. Last library book checked out: Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and A Bend in the Road by Nicholas Sparks
6. Last movie seen in theatres: A Cinderella Story... it was soo cute!
7. Last beverage drink: that new Coke C2 stuff
8. Last food consumed: a snickers hehe..
9. Last crush: my friend James
10. Last phone call: my sis tina
11. Last time showered: about 3 hours ago
12. Last shoes worn: my sisters black flip flops
13. Last item bought: 3 doors down cd
14. Last annoyance: my sisters boyfriend Andy.. i can't stand him at all
15. Last Time Wanting To die: today lol

16. Last Time Scolded:just today by my mom
17. Who are Your Best friends?: maryann, dana, rosie, bissell, allie, becky
Specifics
1.Do You Do Drugs: nah.. not really
2.What kind of shampoo do you use: whatever is in the bathroom
3.What are you most scared of: death
4.Where do you want to get married: in a church
5.What Are you listening to right now: 3 doors down - away from the sun
6.How many buddies are online right now: 18
7.What would you change about your self: everything

Favorites
1.Colors: Green
2.Foods: pizza and pasta
3.Girl Names: none
4.Guy Names: brian, matt,
5.Subject in school: none
6.Animals: dog, tigers
7.Sports: basketball and volleyball
8.Perfume: whatever
9.Colonge: axe lol it smells good

Have You Ever
1.Given anyone a Bath: my dog
2.Smoked: yes

3.Bungee jumped: no but i want to
4.Made Your self Throw up: yea
5.Skinny dipped: yea.
6.Been In Love: i don't think so
7.Made Your Self Cry To get out of trouble: no
8.Pictured Your Crush Naked: haha yea
9.Seen Your Crush Naked: well not the same crush.. but i saw one of my other crushes half naked

12.Fallen For Your Best: nope

Current
1.Clothes: whatever i want
2.Music: 3 doors down, nickelback, rascall flatts, BSB
3.Make up: i have none on right now
4.Annoyance: ANDY
5.Smell: i dunno
6.Favorite Artist: bsb
7.Desktop Picture: 3 doors down logo
8.Book Your Reading: none at the moment
9.CD in player: 3 doors down

Are You
1.Understanding: yea when i want to be
2.Open Minded: yea i guess so
3.Arrogant: ummm not really
4.Insecure: kinda
5.Hungry: yea
6.Smart: hahah umm no
7.Intresting:of course lol
8.Moody: yes very moody
9.Hard-Working: haha yea right!!!!!
10.Organized: not at all
11.Healthy: probably not
12.Shy: nah
13.Attractive: uh no i dunno
14.Bored Easily: yes
15.Responsible: nope
16:Obsessed: yes i have these phases where i'm obsessed with certain people.. it gets bad!
17.Angry: eh.. not right now
18.Sad: no not yet
19.Dissapointed: no
20.Happy: no
21.Hyper: most of the time i am
22.Trusting: pretty much.. but not always
23.Talktive: yes i love to talk
24.Legal: yup!

Who Do you wanna:
1. Kill: no one at the moment
2. Slap: ANDY!
3. Look like: no one
4. Talk Offline: uh .. what?
5. Talk Online: no one everyone's asleep

RANDOM:
1. In the morning I am: the biggest bitch you will ever know.
2. All I need is: my laptop
3. Love is: something i don't really know much about
4. What You Dream about: random shit... everything from college, to my friends, to whatever i saw the night before..